Our baby should be nearly two.

Yesterday was the 2nd birthday of our third baby boy. He was stillborn on 20th May 2011 at 28 weeks gestation.

Coming up to yesterday, I could feel the tension building in me, the weepiness just below the surface and I was not looking forward to this bittersweet anniversary. So I decided to keep our other two boys home from school as a distraction, I wanted some company, selfish perhaps, but he is their brother as well as our 3rd son, so I wanted to talk about him with them, about the what-ifs, and the imagine-ifs....

I didn't want us to hang out at home, because I knew there'd be requests for tv or computer that I wasn't going to capitulate on, so I suggested we go to the museum. I needed to keep busy and distracted and it worked. The day was busy, the boys were delightful and put up with my extra hugs and kisses that I kept bestowing on them. After they were in bed last night I headed off to the local dojo for my cage fitness class, then kept busy till bed time. Then I read my book until I fell asleep.

Phew.

The day is over, past again for another year.

Whole30 is finished....

Remember I was doing The Whole30?

Strict paleo diet and all that?

Well I finished it, a couple of weeks ago actually and the results are in.

In short...

I lost 2 kg.

My fingernails grew really strong.

I don't crave chocolate like a mad woman any more.

And a couple of other things that I'm not going to get into here.

If you want, you can read all the gory details here.

I do like eating this way though, it's nice to feel in control of your food, rather than the other way round.

And over Easter, I did not ingest one bit of chocolate.

Although I did make my best flourless gluten free chocolate mud cake for everyone else though.

And check out these chocolate fudge brownies...

Try not to drool, it makes your keyboard kinda gross after a while...

Recipe here....

Go on, make them, you will not regret it.

Well, maybe if you're doing the whole30 you will, but hey, you'll impress your nearest and dearest!

Have you tried coconut butter?

I have recently discovered coconut butter, and it is a food of the Gods. Truly really.

If you like coconut that is, like I do. If not then meh, maybe not so much.

Ha, doesn't look like much, does it? 

This is freshly made in my thermomix, which of course is good for 101 things. And probably more.
Coconut butter can be made in a food processor or blender too.

The 'butter' firms up after a while, here it is still quite liquid.

Once it's firm, scoop it out with a spoon and eat it. Just like that. Apparently you can use it to bake and cook with but this is the second lot I've made and I don't get round to cooking with it before I've eaten the lot.

And all you have to do to make it is throw some coconut in your blender, food processor or thermomix and let it whiz round for long enough to turn it into a liquid. Done.

Long enough in a food processor is purported to be anywhere from 15-20 minutes but in a thermomix or high powered blender it takes less than half that time.

AND you can make CHOCOLATE coconut butter by mixing in some cocoa. 

See? Food of the Gods I tell ya!

Now, that really is all it takes to make it, but if you want a step by step with accompanying visuals, I've written it up here.

My most favourite-ist gingerbread cookie recipe

My favourite gingerbread cookie recipe came out again recently and the kids got busy making a variety of shapes. 

An update from the original recipe, I now use rapadura instead of plain ol' sugar and I'll either use spelt flour or a gluten free flour mix, both available at my local supermarket these days.

The aim of the game though was to make Captain Cookie, from The Gingerbread Pirates.
I've put a link to the book over in the sidebar if you want to have a look, my two love this book, something about pirates, Santa and food, I suspect.

This little guy was cut with a regular gingerbread man cutter, had one leg amputated and a half toothpick substituted for said leg, his hat was half a round cookie that was mutilated into shape and his classy sword another toothpick. Gotta use what's to hand, right?

Luckily for me, the boys usually get tired of the whole exercise before the decorative icing bit has to be done and are happy to admire their creations sans 'clothes'.

While they're putting on eyes and buttons and trying to create swords, I hurriedly press out the rest of the dough into convenient 'school snack' size cookies.

Did you know you can even make Sponge Bob cookies with this fabulous recipe?

We did ice these guys, I suspect he wouldn't be very recognisable as Sponge Bob if we didn't...

Not sure who this is though...

And I think we even have some ninja shaped cookies lurking in the freezer now.

Best gingerbread cookie recipe ever.


PS. That rapadura link is where I actually buy a few things, rapadura being just one of them.
Honest to Goodness.

Recent karate grading.....and the flu

Think the 'lil guy has the flu.

The ACTUAL flu.

Yup, Dr Google told me that, he fits the symptoms to a tee. Or is it a T?

Poor baby, he's now so congested I can hear him snoring from here in the lounge.

Snotty 'kerchiefs everywhere, much to his older brother's disgust.

And we're going camping again soon, too, being school hols and all. 

Hopefully, he makes a miraculously quick recovery....

Now, the karate grading.

That's him in the foreground, with the brown belt.

It's a white belt class (complete beginners) but he's allowed to wear his brown belt which he gained in the Little Dragons, which is the class for 4-6 year olds. Which he joined when he was 3 and left when he was 4.

Yep, super karate kid that one.

He officially graded to red belt (next belt up from white) while he was still 4. 

He loves it (most of the time) and now has his sparring gear as well. Which he looks pretty funny in, seeing as it's generally sized for 6 yr olds and up. Although he's the youngest, he's not actually the smallest, being that he's a giant of a kid. His little friend  is several months older but about a foot shorter, that's him in the front row in the purple belt.

He looks so little opposite his sensei. 

Ah, a proud mummy moment for sure.

How to make a Trash pack birthday cake

Little Mr R has officially turned 5! 

Given my lack of cake decorating prowess, I sneakily suggested to him that maybe he'd like a trash pack themed birthday cake. Have you heard of trashpacks? 

No? 

Little wee collectible rubbery characters in the guise of various types of gross trash/rubbish.

Easy.

Take one large flat birthday cake. I used my favourite birthday cake recipe,  as always.

Mix up some butter icing, and add enough random colours, plus a little cocoa, to make the icing an icky brown colour.

Make up some green jelly and let it set.

Place a large trash pack bin somewhat off center on your iced cake.

Fill the bin with green jelly and spoon random blobs of jelly onto the cake.

Pile on small handfuls of smarties, and place some jelly snakes strategically around, so they can slide through the trash and slime.

Dot the trash pack characters around and put one or two in the bin.

Let a snake slither out of the bin and sprinkle a few smarties in there too.

See? Not exactly a masterpiece though, but the boys thought it was the best. cake. EVa.
Probably because they got some new trashies out of it, but oh well.

Too easy.

Please 'scuse the very ordinary photography...

And now Mr about-to-turn-8 has requested the same cake, so I get to do it again.

Maybe I'll even get creative and try it with a round cake next time. 

Ooh, livin' on the edge!



27/04/2013

Trash pack cake take 2. And no, it's not round.

Here's Mr H's cake, now he's 8, more of the same really.

The icing on this one was tidier, I had a 'complaint' last time that the icing was too thick and gooey, so this time I actually followed my buttercream icing recipe properly and smoothed it on more thinly.

Hmm, less authentically trashy looking perhaps but it appeals to the must have-order-and-everything-tidy side of me.

The bin is full of red jelly instead of green (specific request from turning-8-year-old) and I didn't put jelly on the cake this time.

The jelly on the last cake made the cake soggy in patches after a while, and seeing as I knew not much of the cake would be eaten right away, we left the jelly off to serve separately.

I threw a few clinkers and chocolate covered sultanas on too, more because I had them left over from another project rather than any inherent sense of design, but they work well.

I find the combo of coloured smarties and small rubber characters very appealing, I am just a fan of smarties altogether, they taste great, I love their size and crunch and they make anything that you put them on look snazzy. And they make decorating kids cakes too easy.

Yay for smarties!

I'm doing a whole30

Have you heard of the whole30? It's clean, strict, paleo eating for 30 days. 

Something I want to do, seeing as I've let some poor snacking habits sneak in of late. 

Whittaker's chocolate anyone? 

Don't go and look at that website if you're hungry by the way. Jus' warning ya.

So, I'm eating some of these....

Not too much of this....

Made this a couple of times...
Chocolate almond green smoothie
(Doesn't count as real chocolate...does it?)

Quite a few of these...

None of this...

Adding these to lots of things....

None of THIS...

Some of this...

As well as plenty of nuts, coconut oil, red meat and chicken.

Yeah, hardly deprivation is it?

I'm feeling great though, but then again, I usually am.

I won't bore you with any more details of it, but if you're interested I'm writing up what I'm eating and any results/observations here....My whole30.

Part of the whole30 is also getting enough sleep, so off to bed for me.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

Camping at bear Gully

We went camping this year over Australia Day, down to Cape Liptrap Coastal Park.

A beautiful area of the coast just a couple of hours drive from Melbourne.

Lots of rocks for the kids to investigate.

Wildlife too...

Beautiful sunsets...

Some moody weather....

If you want to check out more of my photos you can see them here on the page I wrote specifically about camping at Bear Gully.

Hint: don't camp there over Australia Day, too many bogans!

And here's the 'lil fella on his first day!